Your Stupid Face Stuck In My Mind

There are days when I can't stop thinking about you. I know I shouldn't but my laziness to control my emotions and brain waves is weaker than my eagerness to think of you once again. We both moved on. But still I can't help it not to think what if... and the possible chances and things we could be having and doing if I've decided to take your hand. I can't really blame myself because there's nothing to be blamed of. I wanted reassurance. You couldn't promise such thing because you only wanted to breathe in the then-present. I wasn't secured in your arms because I knew you would fly away sooner or later. You thought I was ridiculous for demanding the future which was unknown to everyone. There are times when I wonder if you ever liked me that much as you said. If you ever think of me now. If you ever miss me. I know I shouldn't, but there are nights when I think of your thick lips and wonder how they taste now, almost 1 year and so after our last kiss. If I ever see you again, and if you notice me and remember my face, I'd run to you and kiss your lips. No I wouldn't. I'd probably just give you a smile and then get so distracted afterwards wondering what if...

Two Worlds

I'm stressed
paranoid
anxious
and tired
but you wouldn't know
'cause you're in your own world
a world that doesn't include me
when you claim there's only you and me
but deep down
we both know
we've grew apart
so far away we don't even kiss
make love
laugh together
you blame me for my insanity
madness
and moodiness
and I shout at you
for not being understanding
considering
a man I can count on
I want my life back
I want my smile back
I want my freedom back.

Run To You

I wanna run to you
and tell you how much
I've missed you
But if I come to you
I don't think
You'll take me in your arms
Because you've already forgotten me
You've already moved on
While I'm still here
Dreaming that one day
I'll run to you
And stay in your arms.