August 23, 2010

365 days

"I say... I say... I want us to be together..." and so the song keeps playing till I can't no longer let it in.












I have no idea why I'm missing you this much even though we'd just had lunch. Perhaps the sandwich I had didn't make me full enough. Or perhaps, I'm just too... too into you. If I could, I would love to in filter myself to every single visible pore of yours, so I could stay with you 24 x 7. But let's stop thinking the impossible, and aim for something more viable which is: to stick myself next to you, just like koalas do when they hug a tree from sunrise till they have pins and needles, and ignore everything around me except the notion of your breath still blowing my ears. The whole mechanism of thinking of you at night wishing tomorrow could come easier and faster, seeing you in the afternoon holding your arm and refusing to let you go, and then longing for you again during the evening and dreaming of you in my ridiculously sweet yet wild dreams is driving me mental... Maybe I'm exaggerating. Mental is not the right word here... Let me put it this way: all this is driving me close to a certain level of neediness impossible to be surpassed. And all this neediness growing inside this fragile body of mine is all due to one thing: Love. Yes, I'm so in love with you that I got to see you everyday. I'm so in love with you that I have to breathe your unique smell everyday. I'm so in love with you that whenever I see you smile I smile as well even though I just stepped on something really brownish, sticky and smelly. Believe or not, you've become my life. If this is freaking you out, well, all I can say is: you just have to deal with it, because deep down you're feeling the same mechanism of love, pumping your heart and coloring your days. So come on, just admit it.

There are 365 days in a year, and you've successfully managed to go through such a tough metamorphosis: from a mere human being into someone else's most precious and beautiful other half... Let me be precise: my other half. So thank you, my love.

August 20, 2010

His Past Or Theirs?












She wonders why
Why she still cares
Cares about his past
His past that is long gone
Gone far away
Away? Is it so?

He thinks there's no need
No need for more questions
Questions that won't solve past issues
Issues that is none of her business

She secretly agrees
Agrees with him but
But her heart is telling her there must be
Must be something else, something hidden
Something hidden that he doesn't want her to know
To know a part of him she didn't know before

He finds all these a waste of time
Time that should be cherished and not
And not be dwelled in history
History that is no longer the present
The present that is far more important than the past

She says: for me to give all my love to you, I need to, and I must know everything about your past.
He says: then maybe you shouldn't love the present me... there is only one Me... and it's nowhere but here.

August 06, 2010

Words

It was when you said "all the time". It was in that precise moment. It was right there when I felt my face getting wet. I just found out that whenever you said you were happy next to me, I was being moody with you. Whenever I said I loved you, I was being moody with you. Whenever you hold me tight and looked into my eyes saying how in love you were with me, I was in a mood with you. And it was when I kissed your lips and hold your arm very tenderly, I was in a mood with you. I'm starting to love these words: all the time.