There are so many words I want to tell you. So many things I'd like to hear from you. But we don't say it, do we? Why? It's because we can't handle it. Yes, the truth. Can't we really? If we start pronouncing it, I think we could.Where have you been? I feel like I'm the only one sitting and waiting. It's never easy when you're so suffocated of what you're feeling towards the other person. There are times when I really want to tell you right in front of your face how much I care. How much I miss you. And how weirdly in love I am... with you. But you wouldn't care. And you'd just say "you don't know what I care, you don't know how I feel, you don't know it." So yes, I better stop assuming.
But what's so wrong? Well, it's been too long. It's not that I don't have the courage to run to you and tell you "let's give it a try". I just need you to tell me the exact words I'd like to hear. I need your reassurance. But you seem so far away from me. I don't want to forget you, but there are times when I can no longer remember... Because once I'm in your arms, it'd be too hard for me to see you go.
Can we just lay down and start telling the truth, what we really want from each other?
Just for once.
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Why do you need his reassurance? Did he not show you enough? If he did, don't actions speak louder than words?
I don't know if this is a story about you Francesca or simple a fictional story about 2 people. I like it though, it's very real and close to my own experiences.
Keep up the good work :)
What makes you think it's she who is in need of reassurance? :)
It seems one of them is too eager to listen those words coming out from the other. And the latter is tired of witnessing the other's lack of confidence.
How would feel? What would you have done in a similar situation?
Thanks Mr./Miss Anonymous :)
Haha... true. I don't know, I just assumed it was a she who needed reassurance, isn't it most of the time? Women are not always that confident and they always want to hear those 3 words...... Men are different. Just because we don't say it doesn't mean we don't feel it.
I had a similar experience. She believed me, and trusted me. But she just wanted to hear that from me. At first I thought it was very ridiculous and how childish. But when she left I realized what a big loser I was. If I loved her so much why on earth couldn't I tell her those words she so wanted from me? I was selfish. When I finally told her, it was too late. She moved on. We weren't a couple, but there was something between us.
Anyway, thank you Francesca :)
Please tell me the real reason why you didn't tell her those words... Don't get me wrong, I just think it's more than what you've said in here...
:)
I'm quite surprised and impressed! Yes, I didn't say it all. I think it was because I was really in love with her, I wasn't sure about my feelings, and I didn't want to jump in and promise her a lot using those words. I was quite happy with my single man life. But at the end I realized how much I loved her.
Francesca, you're definitely impressive :)
:)
"I think it was because I was really in love with her, I wasn't sure about my feelings...
But were you, or were you not really in love with her? Because what you wrote doesn't make too much sense... Mr. Anonymous...
Yes, I wasn't really in love with her at first. But I liked her a lot.
Francesca, tell me more about you.
You can call me Zito :)
You might find out more by reading this blog... haha
Do you have a blog?
Thanks Zito for the comments :)
I'm going to create one but won't be about any writings... I'm not good at writing. It will be about gadgets and things like that...
Francesca, I like your stories. They make me wonder if you write about yourself or other people.
Have a good day :)
I guess feeling insecure is normal, asking for reassurance is understandable, especially when you care something or someone too much, but that will only happen when you are graceful about what's been given to you or what's in front of you.
I don't believe in god, neither does any religious have any effect to my life, but I believe in fate, an opportunity. What's more important is for you to understand everything is down to your decision, and that should allow you to explore your own pathway, isn't it? Who knows if it's the right way? Who knows what's gonna happen? But does it matter? Shouldn't be really, if both of the characters in this story have faith in each other... True shouldn't be told, or should it? Time should tell, and truth can definitely be felt...
Best Regards,
Laranja
Yes, there's nothing wrong in asking for reassurance. Some people do, when they are insecure. People need that, whether they know it or not.
Everyone perceives "the truth" differently. But I suppose those characters were really eager to find out if they saw the "truth" under the same lime light. Too bad they were both too insecure of themselves, otherwise things would have ended up differently.
Fate... mm... You see it, and you grab it. What's the best opportunity you grabbed so far?
Thanks for leaving a comment Laranja :)
I met a Chinese guy the other day, he told me the 3rd of Oct is the Mid Autumn festival in China, not sure if you have heard of it? It is the night with the full moon, representing people should be in harmony, like a full circle.
What's the best opportunity I grabbed? I got reminded everytime when I can have my lady beside me... and this time on a random Chinese festival. Hopefully there'll be many more to come...
Laranja
Mid-autumn festival :)
I'm sure you had a lovely chinese lunar day then, needless to ask.
The moon today's beautiful here in Macau. Maybe you might be able to see the other face of the moon. Where are you Laranja, if you don't mind me asking.
Macau? Doesn't sound like an Italian city name, where about is it?
I'm homeless at the moment. Where do I from, I honestly have not got any idea. Still waiting for my new life with my better half, will be able to answer your question once I finally settle in somewhere after all these stressful years.
Looking forward to see more of your writing.
P.S postcard is one of my favourite.
Best Regards,
Laranja
Macau is a beautiful city in China.
A homeless Laranja? Mm... I'm imagining an orange in a lonely street... haha... sorry, bear with me... So are you physically homeless or psychologicaly? I guess there's always a place you feel at home, it will come to you :)
You keep mentioniong about your other half, tell me more about her if you don't mind. I'm curious.
Why is "postcard" one of your favourites?
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